it's been a long week
By ThirtySixSwash on 01-21-2008
A lot of things have happened recently that I don’t really care to elaborate on.
I meant to update a while ago I just haven't had the time to get any consistent strain of thought together. Just thinking about all the things I’ve learned in the past few years just blows me away. And not only the things I’ve learned about myself, but the world, and just people in general.
I still don't know what to write in here, considering I write in my livejournal so often, so I decided to skim through some of my latest entries for some random topics of my own personal interest.
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I don’t like thinking too much of myself, or being praised, even a little bit.
Rule #1: Do not indulge in intense psychological mind games
I'm always looking for thing's to separate me from normality, from the ordinary, from reality.
weird thoughts, I should be cut off from the social society. I would be a more happy, well-rounded person.
and should probably start gaining some control over myself
It’s become conveniently apparent that I need to rethink my life a little
certain characteristics of people's personalities can greatly effect the way I treat them
It's all about destiny and fate these days. and it's been that way since the first of all days
Can't get my head out of the clouds
could never get my head out of the clouds.
What I want you to think
and what is real
are two very different things.
I'm secretive,
and fake, for no apparent reason at all.
I hate when people try to manipulate me
how thick can you get
looking into people's eyes
it's almost like reading a book
soaking it all in
for that split second
suddenly you know everything about them
and not soon enough can you forget it
"a good friend is a connection to life- a tie to the past, a road to the future, the key to sanity in a totally insane world."
a. cheyenneeee
“There are no secrets, just hidden truths beneath the surface.
I see their pain. On some level, I even understand their pain. I just can't feel their pain.'
-http://dexterwiki.sho.com/page/Dexter+Quotes?t=anon
:::::::::::::show’s pretty intense.
too bad I’ve never seen it. I’d probably like it a lot.
Well, that’s all for now. This hasn’t made much sense, and I'll probably delete it later, but it is 12:28 in the morning and I have a lot of time to go waste before the night is over.
Sleepless Sundays are great.
Losing people you never anticipated to be lost,
is something else
And because of his death
it has never before been so easy
to point out what we're all doing wrong
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Posted by David on Jan 21, 2008
I believe in pre-destination. You write really well. |
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Posted by gemini612 on Jan 25, 2008
Very interesting blog...a blog from an idealist for an idealist. Although I'm still learning about the idealist personality, I do think we have a strong ability to pick up on "vibes" and really "feel" the world. Since we're intuitive and feeling, I like to think of this part of our personality as an "antenna". Whether we like it or not, we're going to pick up energies from many different people and situations. Some energies could be considered good, bad, or just simply noise...and all have the ability to alter our moods, our outlook on life, and for some..even well being. However, unlike radios, we don't have built-in receivers that would automatically minimize the noise and later filter out and amplify the energies that we wish to tune into (ugh.. I hope this isn't too abstract). This is something we have to perform ourselves (easier said than done, of course). We have to learn how to be "receivers" rather than simply being "antennas". (uuuuugh...it's 1:01 am at the time of this post..If this doesn't make sense, don't worry...I'm recovering from a bad cold and I took two doses of Nyquil minutes before writing this....) |
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Posted by JackDermody on Jan 28, 2008
I can’t tell you how joyful I am devouring insights from all this dialogue in the Zone. From many Idealists’ blog entries and yours today, ThirtySixSwash, it’s pretty clear quite a few Idealists have a peculiar wealth, and WEALTH indeed it is (not a load of things or material goals or a lot of money or position or power or…) No, the wealth is breathing in what folks are feeling and thinking, and thereby we are enriched – sometimes ecstatically happy – with just this ephemeral empathy. And when real friendship happens along – we eat it up like gourmet manna. |
You are working SO hard, child! I am impressed and proud of your courage. Don't delete anything, please! I followed every line. Jack Dermody recently wrote about Idealist's devoting thier WHOLE everything to love. (he was much more eloquent) That's you, baby! When you feel emotions, you FEEL them. But man, sometimes it sucks! Have you every seen the movie "Girl Interrupted" ? I'm not a big movie person because I can't sit still long enough, but I saw myself in that movie.