convinced
A kid in a candy store.
By doctorgiggles99 on 05-24-2008
So, I am convinced that there is something wrong or in the least not right with me... I have some sort of disorder whereby i am a kid in a candy store and i want to sample all of the candy. I cannot commit to just one or two even, but want more. Even when i have sampled as much as i can i still want more. Sometimes i sample so much that i get belly aches.
I used to be able to make decisions with a little bit more clarity in thought. Now i feel very wishy-washy. I am not sure what i want. I have made lists and tried several times to look at things logically. I take what i have and i write it down: attributes, tangibles, etc... then i look at the list of things that i want and i cannot pin point any one thing... the list is constantly changing. sort of like the candy. There is always something else to test out or to look at or associate with.
Why is this? Is it because my focus is troubled or hindered? Or Is it because my focus is actually spot on and i do not want to admit what i am truly wanting? Because i just wrote that sentence without premeditation i will look further into that topic... more to come.
I used to be able to make decisions with a little bit more clarity in thought. Now i feel very wishy-washy. I am not sure what i want. I have made lists and tried several times to look at things logically. I take what i have and i write it down: attributes, tangibles, etc... then i look at the list of things that i want and i cannot pin point any one thing... the list is constantly changing. sort of like the candy. There is always something else to test out or to look at or associate with.
Why is this? Is it because my focus is troubled or hindered? Or Is it because my focus is actually spot on and i do not want to admit what i am truly wanting? Because i just wrote that sentence without premeditation i will look further into that topic... more to come.
A kind & brilliant man sent this message to me. I keep it taped with in eyesight. You may dig it. -> "It would be interesting to see what you want out of life instead of what you needed. Take what you want and keep single focus on it. feel it, know that it will be yours."